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Name: Amber
Location: Tennessee, United States
Birthday: 7/31/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: singing dancing swimming reading writting rollerblading football
Expertise: singing
Occupation: Student
Industry: Media
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Member Since:
9/18/2003
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| In Loving Memory
Dawniel Leola Weiland
Wednesday March 13, 1985 - Saturday September 20,2003
Brushing back the hands of time I look into your bright brown eyes. So full of life they sing and dance. Laughing at every given chance. Shining wildly your eyes glimed with joy. A heart of gold. So big and pure. You cared more for the people around you then you did for yourself. I always knew you'd be there to comfort me whenever I needed your help. Now you're gone and with you so is my heart. I feel so scared without you here. I feel so alone. You'll always be here in my heart.
********************************************* I went to Dawn's funeral. It has been by far the worst day of my life. I miss her sooo much. Even when I was looking at her casket, I was telling myself, "That's not really her. She's not in there." She was only 18 and had the world going for her. She was working at McDonalds, had a beautiful baby girl, was going to graduate this year, and had recently been saved. She had it all together and had a great future. I don't see at all why this happened, but I know it must have some good to it. At the service the couple that Dawn had given her baby to spoke. They're good christians and they said a lot of things about Dawn that none of us knew. It turns out that she had saved someone's life. A teenage girl was pregnant and wanted an abortion. She talked to her and showed the girl her baby's birth certificate and told her her story. She convinced her not to get an abortion and now the girl is four months and talking to a good christian couple for adoption. That makes me so proud of Dawn. To know that she touched so many lives. But it makes me miss her all the more. | | |
| A close friend of mine, Dawn died last Friday in a hit and run accident and I just found out about it. Right now they think that she and some of her friends were hanging out and someone called thier dad to pick them up. He did and they were going down I40 and someone started getting sick so they pulled off to the side of the road and a drunk driver hit them and drove off. The truck flipped and Dawn was thrown from the vechile and died instantly. One of the girls that was with her is now paralized from the neck down. I'm going to the vistitation tonight and I don't know how in the world I'll be able to make it through. The funeral is tomorrow so please pray for her friends and family. She has a baby girl she gave up for adoption. It was open so her baby knows who she is and she was supossed to grow up with her birth mom in her life. Now she won't know her. It seems like last year all over again. For those of you that know about my friend, Rachel, and how she died, then you might understand. Jennifer is paralized from the neck down. Cathy is really messed up, but she'll be okay. She has a lot of stitches and her ribs are bruised. They said the only way she made it is because she was laying down. Matt is okay since he was outside of the truck and the dad is okay, too. I went to the visitation. I saw her senior picture and she looked so beautiful. I did find out she is saved so that helps a little. I'm just so shocked. Her baby, Adison was there with her adoptive parents and birth dad. She looks just like her moma. Same big beautiful eyes. Same everything. Spitting image of an angel. I'm REALLY dreading tomorrow. I'm leaving school early to be there by three. I looked at her casket and just broke down. It just doesn't seem right. She was always so jumpy and full of life. Now she's not.
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| Church was awesome this morning. We had a missionary come and preach. It was so moving. Tonight we're having a special thing. A banquet. (sp) I'm going to be a server. I'd rather be a server than sit down the whole time. I actually like doing stuff like that. I can't be still for too many hours. I didn't really talk to Jim a lot. I'd rather not get too emotional so I try to avoid an odd encounter with him. I hope he doesn't think I'm trying to be mean I'm just doing what I think is best for a three of us. *rolls eyes* Those of you that know the story know what I'm talking about when I say three. Three is too much company for sure. Oh, Tyler's friend, DJ, gave me his number but right now is not a good time for anything. It just so happens I don't really like anyone. And OMG when is everyone going to get over the 'Big B.' That was so last year! | | |
| Today was Homecoming day. School let out around 11 something. We had a pep aka prep ralley first through 2sd period. The seniors won, but I think we were the loudest and more pumped. 05 05 05! We have the stupidest cheers! One goes like, " Lets go stars. Lets go stars." Wow! I think even I could have come up with that one! Then there's something about the "blue machine." That one REALLY freaks me out! There's one that goes like, " S.I.E.G.E.L let's go Siegel." I keep doing Oakland's cheers out of habit. I'm sorry, but I still love Oakland and I want to go back sooo bad! "OHS the badest team from east to west!" Quite literally this year! Lol. Of course I can't really say anything about that. I wonder who won the game tonight. I didn't stay to see. I had this wierd dream that we won some game. Of course I knew it was a dream because I woke up and remembered, we're the mighty mighty stars! *sigh* Whatever. I'm going to make myself sick with all these useless cheers. I'm going to Oakland's Homecoming for sure. O.T. will be there so I have to go or I'll never be able to forgive myself. I miss him sooo much. Or is it getting out of class and skipping with him and Officer Weeks that I miss so much? No, actually I've been doing a good job staying in class this year. Out of unwillingness of course, but hey, I'm doing it! Well, I better go. It's 3:30 in the morning and I have to go to bed. Love always,
Amber | | |
| Tonight was awesome! I love it, I love it, I LOVE it! Performing is the best thing on earth! I think I made up my mind. This is what I want to do. I love the thrill, the rush, the everything. Knowing for a moment I'm the star. It's the greatest thing. The lights, the music, the sound, the voices, the platform, the people, the stage set, everything! Every little detail is GREAT! I think I'm falling in-love with this! Lol. Well, at least it's not a guy that can always leave. I had a pretty good day today. It seemed like a WEEK! Probably because of all the dancing we did. Oh and btw, this whole Jim and me thing is getting totally out of hand. Just like Jared and me. Everybody already had this image that we were together and we weren't. We were only 'talking'. The deal was that he and I were BOTH talking to other people before we met. He was talking to some girl at Riverdale and I was talking to my long time friend and ex boyfriend, Jared. I wanted to take a chance with Jared and it didn't work out. He wanted to take a chance with that girl and as of a few days ago, it didn't work out. Now I have no intension of going out with him. He and I are just good friends. That's all. And now everyone is so upset that we aren't going out. Sorry I can't be J-Lo and Ben, but it's not going to happen. My life is NOT a sit com. It's pretty darn boring here and there. well, I better go. I have to get some sleep. I had a horrible time trying to sleep last night and I had an energy drink this morning so I'm exhausted! Oh and btw yes, I cried when Richard left. I was the last person he talked to, but he's supossed to be there Monday!!!!! (yes!) Well, I better go now for real. Love you people!
Amber | | |
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